B safe 1st always... that is the message


Welcome to B safe 1st always

I started this website in 2009 so its been over 13 years and I have run it on my own and funded it myself in all that time. I want to say a big thank you to you for coming to the website and to all those who have found the website helpful, that's all I ever wanted. All the best, John.

2022 UPDATE: its 17th December 2022 and I know that the festive season is a hard time of year for many people. I wish for you to have a peaceful time and spare the time you need for yourself. For many years I struggled, all year, but the festive season was especially hard, please take care.

I spent many years campaigning and spending every waking moment dealing with all these issues, it consumed me. I had little choice, after the flashbacks and deteriorating health, that came with that, not getting the help I should have, taking all those responsible on in campaigning etc the list went on. I am amazed I came through it all and I'm still here, but thankfully I am. The steps each person needs is different in all the different circumstances.

In the end I began to do other things and once again found myself, although I always know that I have to be careful as things can change very quickly. It's important to change what you can and know the things you cannot change, there sometimes lies the problem. I changed many things and even found peace, but sadly others in my life were doing things, yet again, that led to the deterioration of my health, although I'm still in a better place than I was, having survived all I have so far.

Having been abused in childhood or any other abuses and or mental health issues can end up defining you, this happened to me. But I am determined that it does not define / determine my whole life, even though it may well take up most of it. In the last few years (I'm now 52) I have been writing once again, but not about abuse, I haven't written a poem about child abuse in more than ten years, I have said most of what I wanted to say and can just share those poems and words I've already done. I am more than that, I make people laugh and have everyday normal issues like everyone else, which is important. Like the other day when I wrote a poem on waiting in for someone to fix my toilet.

I know life can be hard, but we deserve better and even if we are around people that don't treat us like we should be treated, it's important to recognize that and get out of also doing it to ourselves, which again I struggle with myself. I came into this world with love and will not allow others to take that from me. Take care of yourself and hang in there through to 2023 a new year and a new beginning with a clear slate to start from. What helped me though the festive season in the past, was to see beyond Christmas day and New years eve and look forward to 1pm on New years day, where I would have a nice dinner, to start a new beginning.

All the best John, B safe 1st always

Hello, here's an important message first: IF you HAVE BEEN struggling, are RIGHT NOW or may in the FUTURE, or know someone like that, then PLEASE take a look at this page with information about HELPLINES and words from someone who HAS used one.

Please be in a safe place and safe state of mind when viewing this website. 

Be one more to say: "I SURVIVED" 


My last log in on this website was in 17th December 2022


All material on this site are under copyright conditions of the source: John Harrison. If you wish to use ANY material from this site, YOU MUST have MY permission. Thank You. But let me say: I am always happy for my work to be used elsewhere, as long as I am shown as the author.


There are organisations and numbers here for YOU

Please reach out to that someone TODAY.

But whatever happens, keep trying.

There are other numbers and other people.

It will take as long as it takes, to get the right help.



Please take a look to the the right,

or on the links page for details of some who are here.

 Hope, its just one word, and it may seem a small one

but its why many are still here.

Grasp it when ever you can. Cling to it. Do what you have to.

And when there seems like there is no hope... HANG ON IN THERE

so you're still with us, when it does return. 

An introduction to the site:

My names John Harrison and this site has been going for 10 years now (as of 2019). Originally failings in the system that I encountered led me to speak out and have to speak publicly from the 1990's. The core content of the website is around child abuse and mental health and there has always been a combination of things that I wanted the website to do. I wanted others to be aware of the rest of us with the same issues, to at least let them know that they are not alone in what they go through or have gone through. I wanted the website to expose some of the wrongdoings too which it did.

There is no content on this site, nor has there ever been any, that is in any way inappropriate. BUT some people are more vulnerable than others and that's why there are links in the right sidebar on this website and the links page to show some organisations that may be able to help OR show that for every issue there may well be a helpline, charity or organisation out there for you, they don't always work for everybody, this I know. All links to them here are not put there for the organisations or charities, they are ONLY put here by me in the hope that they may help someone. IF they don't, please hang on in there.

IF you are someone who wants to learn more about the failings in the system I encountered and about the campaigning I did, then take a look at the 'FAILED by the System' page to start to find out more. IF not, you can have a general look around the rest of the site for help or some important information and insight it to it all. Changes I made and will make, help people more easily make a choice as to what they want to look at.

B safe 1st always... that IS the message. 

 'Raising awareness of the consequences of child abuse in later life'



A helpful index and guide to this website for newcomers:

 Here's a little guide to what to expect on each page of this website: 

'TALK' this is a brief introduction on what options may be there for you when you want to know: WHO & HOW can I TALK & TELL someone abuse my abuse?

'HELPLINES' I know it explains itself, but its a very important page to mention. This page shows why helplines are so needed. PLEASE share them online, you never know who may see it, and need it. 

'Books' a selection of just a few books on child abuse mainly by survivors themselves. 

'Child Abuse Monument' the monument is in Canada, it gives more info about it. 

'Raising Awareness' talks and shows some videos about raising awareness of child abuse and its consequences in later life.

'FAILED by the system' this page links to several very detailed pages on the failings in the system I endured, including within and by healthcare professionals. It also links to several detailed pages on the campaign and raising awareness that I then did, about these failings. I started Writing to MP's, PM, the Queen and more. I have recently separated all these relating pages, so they can be accessed by this one page. It helps to keep it away from you, IF you're in a vulnerable place, and you can avoid all this if you need to. All the pages this one links to, are VERY IMPORTANT to me. And where a very big part of me speaking out. 


About Me 



"As someone being abused OR who was, YOU have the RIGHT to be away from people (ANYONE) making it worse for you, despite how some may act or what they may say"

John Harrison. B safe 1st always... that is the message.

Samaritans HELPLINE

Samaritans HELPLINE is here 24 / 7

Are you vulnerable? Feeling low?

Then why not call:

UK & ROI: 116 123

PLEASE call or reach out to

that someone... TODAY

NAPAC (click on icon)



For Children: Childline:

Are you a child who

needs to talk to someone?

ChildLine is here for YOU

Call ChildLine on UK 0800 1111

or visit the website.

Child Exploitation and Online Protection Centre below:

The Child Exploitation and Online Protection (CEOP) Centre is dedicated to eradicating the sexual abuse of children.

Part of UK policing about tracking and bringing offenders to account either directly or in partnership with local and international forces.

A list of worldwide Helplines (click on icon):

Links to Befrienders website for a

WORLDWIDE list of Helplines.


Citizens Advice Bureau (UK)

The Citizens Advice Bureau

provide FREE advice in the UK

Visit their website to find out more.



FAILED by the system

CLICK HERE to see more details on

how the system FAILED me and the

campaigning and exposure of this

I have done for over a decade

Queens response to my letter

The "Reaching out" Child Abuse Monument in Canada...


To find out more use this link

My video poem below 'Our Silence'

that will be inside the monument